Sometimes it's not
the big miracles that shake us—it's the small mercies. The quiet
nudges. The seemingly ordinary moments that turn out to be anything
but.
A few weeks ago, I
bought three young Saanen does from a farm several hours south of
here. The plan was simple: pick them up at the end of October.
Nothing urgent. Nothing pressing. Just one more farm errand penciled
on the calendar.
But then, on a
Monday afternoon several weeks earlier, I found myself with an
unexpected day off for a Tuesday. No explanation, just an open day
like a blank page. And I felt a nudge. Not a shove. Not a sign in the
sky. Just a whisper: Go
now.
So I called the
woman I was buying the goats from and asked if I could come the next
day. She said that’d be fine, and we settled on a pickup between
noon and 1:00.
I called a friend
and asked if she was up for an outing. She was. It was a long drive,
seven hours round trip, and when we got there, the place was empty.
We waited. We went to lunch. Came back. Still no one. It would have
been easy to be frustrated. Easy to call it a wasted day. But
something told us to wait. We took a leisurely walk. And waited some
more.
Around 4:00, a big
van finally pulled in. Out spilled a gaggle of school-aged kids,
laughing and loud. The woman stepped out looking overwhelmed and
apologetic—she had completely forgotten. A new foster child had
arrived the night before, and the whole day had been spent enrolling
him in school and trying to make a frightened child feel safe in a
new place. My heart softened. Life happens. People do their best.
We loaded the goats,
made the long drive home, and rolled into the driveway well after
dark. Tired, but grateful. That could’ve been the end of the story.
But then, yesterday.
. . everything changed.
The farm I’d just
been to a few days earlier caught fire. Fortunately, a neighbor
arriving home late, saw the blaze, called 911, and banged on their
door to wake everyone up. They all got out safely. But the
devastating blaze took the barn, damaged the house, and claimed
nearly everything. All their sheep. All their chickens. Most of their
goats. Gone in one terrible night.
And then it hit
me—those three young goats I brought home? They were in the back
section of the barn. The part that didn’t survive. They weren’t
milking yet, so they’d been kept in the pens with the other young
does. The ones that burned.
If I hadn’t had
that day off. If I hadn’t made that call. If I’d stuck to the
original plan. They’d be gone too.
That Tuesday—quiet,
unremarkable, and off-script—saved their lives.
I went out to the
barn the next morning, still shaken, and knelt down beside those
three gentle does. I ran my hands over their soft coats, choked up
with tears I didn’t bother to hide, and whispered a promise to take
care of them. For me. For their former family. For whatever reason
they were spared.
But the story still
didn’t end there.
I had already
purchased two more does from that same farm a while back. Both are in
milk now. Solid girls. I’d been debating selling them, but hadn’t
found the right buyer. Or so I thought.
The family that lost
everything. . . they were trying to rebuild. Not just buildings, but
a life. A rhythm. An identity. An income. And I realized maybe I
could help.
So I sent an
email—no pressure, no expectation. Just a simple offer: Would
you be interested in any of the girls I bought from you?
The next morning,
the phone rang. Her voice cracked. “We want them. All seven.”
Seven? Not just the
five I’d gotten from her, but two more high-quality does with
similar bloodlines that, for some reason, I was thinking of selling.
This
felt
right. And in that moment, goosebumps. The kind that whisper: This
was never random.
Looking back now,
every step feels stitched together by something greater than chance.
I only meant to buy two goats. She had three. I sent a check for two,
tried to leave it at that, but something nudged me to call her back
and say, “I’ll take the third.”
I had a buyer lined
up for the previous two I bought from her. That buyer vanished. No
deposit. No reply. I was annoyed—but I let it go and had decided
maybe I wanted to keep them.
Then the email I
sent to the family? It went to her spam folder. She never checks her
spam. But that
night,
something told her to look. And there it was. My message. Right on
time.
I can’t explain it
away. I don’t want to.
These goats—these
bossy, bleating, grain-demanding, absolutely irreplaceable souls,
aren’t just going to a new home. They’re going back.
Back to the arms that raised them. Back to the family who needs them
now more than ever, who need them more than I do.
And yes, it breaks
my heart a little. Every goat I’ve ever owned has claimed a piece
of my heart, and these are no different. I know their quirks, their
voices, their routines. I know who screams if the hay isn't fluffed
just right and who won’t eat unless I hum to her. They've been my
chaos, my calm, my therapy.
But this. . . this
is grace. The kind you don’t see coming. The kind that rewrites
stories with second chances and open doors.
They’re not
leaving just yet. The family’s still getting the new barn ready. So
I’ve got a little time. A few more breakfasts met with impatient
bleating. A few more nights of nose kisses and head scratches. A
little more of the story, before the next chapter begins.
And when that
trailer pulls in, I’ll help load them up. I’ll stroke their soft
ears one last time. Whisper a promise that I’ll never forget them.
And watch them ride down the road, not to an end, but a new
beginning.
Because this story,
full of heartbreak and healing and holy timing, it doesn’t stop
here.
The
story continues.