Monday, November 15, 2010

A Page Turns, A Chapter Ends, But The Book Isn't Finished

Things change, sometimes with dizzying speed. Life throws you a curve, you duck, and find yourself headed in the opposite direction. So it is with me these days. After much painful thought, and many, many shed tears, it is with great sadness that I announce the end of my small homestead farm.

One of the problems with small homesteading, as I'm sure those of you who have animals can relate to, is the serious lack of freedom to get away. And it's very expensive to hire someone to "farm-sit" while you're away - like $60 a day expensive. The cost of care and feeding alone is expensive, let alone adding that kind of expense to the equation. Both people have to be totally committed to the lifestyle of self-sufficiency to make it work, willing to give up travel freedom to spend long hours of drudgery for little monetary reward. To those of us who are farmers in our core being, it's a labor of love. I had grand plans to have a small commercial kitchen finished and inspected by next spring and begin a cheese making endeavor as a retirement business. But, as the saying goes, life is what happens while you're making other plans.

But have no fear, farming is in my blood, in my DNA, and I'm hardwired to it, it's part of who I am. So, like a duck is drawn to water, I may yet resurface in the distant, or not too distant, future with another homestead, obnoxious goats and all! When the time is right. But for now the tears fall with each contact I make to sell my very loved animals. And whoever buys them better be prepared to have a very lonely ex-farmer visit.

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8 comments:

Delirious said...

I'm sad for you, but I totally understand. I just have a dog and a cat, but boarding is quite expensive. If I didn't have neighbors to help out, I wouldn't be able to afford to leave them. But a farm...that's just the most ideal life I can imagine. Hard to give up!

Peggy said...

Oh my heart aches for you. I know you will truly miss your animal family. Whatever you do you are still a homesteader!

~Tonia said...

I am soo very sorry... I dont know if I could be without it.... I hope you find your way back to it someday..
I hope you find wonderful new homes for all of your animals...

MotherLodeBeth said...

This is why in my area we have friends who have reliable teen agers whom we get to stay at our places to feed water etc the animals when we are gone days or a week. And some of our friends have 20 somethings at home who attend a nearby college during the day who also will stay for free at our place in exchange for the great food we leave them as well as the kayak and other gear they can use.

Moira said...

Oh, Sandy, I'm SO very sorry!

You WILL find amazing homes for your babies, I know it.

I wish I lived closer, not that Maine is that far away. I would LOVE to have Talon but we aren't set up for a horse right now.

My heart is breaking for you...

kelly said...

i love you mom

MaggieMaeFarm said...

Oh Sandy, how sad! But everyone has to do what is best for them...

Let me know when you have a list of farm animals/breeds/prices, etc. and I'll pass them around to some of the locals to see if we can find some good homes for there here in NH!

Ryan said...

Oh how hard it is to sell off animals, esp when you care for them like part of the family. I remember the sadness and frustration of knowing it was the right thing to do but it was still very hard.